From here on; I give myself permission to be selfish, but only when I need to.
Permission…
Milestone…
Turning 5 years old is a milestone, for both you and I, Cacia. You should be: causing mayhem and chaos with your sister and brother; turning our home upside down; almost half way through your first year of big girl school; in swimming lessons; have your first bestest friend; be excited about birthday parties, presents … Continue reading Milestone…
Journey…
5 years ago today, I was told the news. ‘I’m sorry, there is no heartbeat, your baby has died’. 5 years ago today, I told my husband this news on the phone. 5 years ago today, I listened as my husband told my mum, my sisters, my brother, his mum, his dad that our baby … Continue reading Journey…
A little bit, goes a long way…
...it doesn’t have to be big, you dont have to know the right words, just be there with them. Offer what you can, that’s manageable to you...
Transition…
It was so easy to say... give up this year ... The reality is different...
The importance of Rock…
I don’t believe in NY resolutions, but .... I am reminded of how important it is that I tell him how much I appreciate him and how well he is doing as a father and husband, he is after all our Rock.
‘The baby’…
I haven’t posted for quite some time, for many reasons, I don’t feel as grief stricken as I once did, life has gotten busy, in reality I haven’t had something I want to say. I do now. It’s strange how one throw away comment knocks you off kilter. Reminds you of why you started writing, … Continue reading ‘The baby’…
What I have learnt on this journey….
Over my 35 years, I have learnt a variety of things about myself, but the 6 main ones that I have learned have all happened in the last 4 years following your death. They have taught me how adaptable I am, how strong I can be despite my doubts, how no matter how lost I … Continue reading What I have learnt on this journey….
It’s so easy… for you!!!
I woke up Rock at 3am this morning, sadly for us not because I wanted a bit of fun. I woke him because I had a mummy moment of anxiety. I have decided to enrol Mr Destructor into nursery, daycare whatever you want to call it, for 3 mornings a week, literally 4 hours, 3 … Continue reading It’s so easy… for you!!!
It’s time for change…
There are very few moments where I feel negatively towards the country we live in but this morning was one moment. Today I felt powerless and insignificant as I watched my 5 year old daughter deal with inappropriate harassment and intimidation from a group of 10 little boys aged 8-10years old. These little boys, chased … Continue reading It’s time for change…
