Milestone no. 6…

Milestones; a stone set up on the road to mark the distance travelled or until you reach a particular destination...

If only…

If only, if only, if only... the words, the sentiment behind them are usually always painful. It’s looking back, not with rose tinted glasses, but with knowledge. It’s the desire to have the power to turn back the clock and relive time, or a moment again and change it with the power of your knowledge. …

Infinite…

Even after almost 6 years - I still find myself in tears. It isn’t the expected triggers that reminds, it is the surprising moments where I remember. This latest one is Diversity’s latest dance choreography to George Ezra’s ‘Hold My Girl’ (a guaranteed tear jerker anyway). A very sweet moment of a new father with …

Permission…

From here on; I give myself permission to be selfish, but only when I need to.

Milestone…

Turning 5 years old is a milestone, for both you and I, Cacia. You should be: causing mayhem and chaos with your sister and brother; turning our home upside down; almost half way through your first year of big girl school; in swimming lessons; have your first bestest friend; be excited about birthday parties, presents …

Journey…

5 years ago today, I was told the news. ‘I’m sorry, there is no heartbeat, your baby has died’. 5 years ago today, I told my husband this news on the phone. 5 years ago today, I listened as my husband told my mum, my sisters, my brother, his mum, his dad that our baby …

A little bit, goes a long way…

...it doesn’t have to be big, you dont have to know the right words, just be there with them. Offer what you can, that’s manageable to you...

Transition…

It was so easy to say... give up this year ... The reality is different...

7…

You are 7 years old today. Today, you should have woken me up far too early, over excited and thrilled about your birthday and the celebration you knew would be happening. We were supposed to see you with your siblings in a never ending cycle of torment, friendship, love and play between you all. Today, …

Little bit of love…

A little bit of love makes all the difference. Rock and I have a lot of love between us, we have fought for our marriage, for each other, for our family - pushed ourselves to make our relationship stronger, when neither of us believed there was anything left to save. This year we will have …